Scent of Love

The smell of 4am coffee is my closest experience to the scent of love. At the same time, the opposing scent of unworthiness.

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Lessons and/from rebirth

Reborn. Yes, hovering between the figurative and literal sense of the word. I chose the death door on the first day of new year, not sure if it was out of spite or out of a total sense of loss.

Family ride!

After a grand 3-year hiatus, our family finally gets to ride together again, now that Babyboo is old enough to join us. Our new 2-year-old member now rides with us for our journey to breakfast and a morning stroll around the park. The yuge park that we grew up around since we moved into urbanization. …

Spring cleaning of a different kind

Libby spent his day at home today. Totally boggling, usually he’d make sure I take him everywhere I go. But today, all was quiet until I got up the bus, and saw his pouch empty. Oops. Seems like duty called and he had to do some work at home. Definitely so, cos I saw him…

Gift of Giving

Just bought two tins of pineapple tarts and I feel extremely happy. Satisfaction from the continuous whiffs of rich buttery and egg-infused tarts with the sweetness of natural pineapples and their fibrous textures. I loved it! There were different kinds on sale, so I asked the sales ladies what the differences are, and one pointed…

The Thinning Veil

While at Frances, I remarked how the bottles that now draw me are the ones that are similar on both layers, both hues and shades. It is interesting in that the last time I was there, what called out to me were those whose colours were distinct but very balanced and harmonized. She explained that…

Of Secrets and Lies

This definitely attributed to my family upbringing, where we were brought up to know “there are no secrets in our family” and I have parents opening my letters from young. There you go.

The Taste of Confusion

These past¬†two days had been really really spacey for me. The day before, I was just in a whole whirlpool of things I cannot understand. It scares me, really. I can usually understand something when I put my mind to it. It probably takes three to five times longer than others (other people more familiar…

The Unsuspecting Marathon

As most would have noticed, I started using the equilibrium and quintessence since a week before Christmas. I have been diligently using them daily and had been clearing lotsa issues nightly too. Unknowingly, I had run a¬†marathon of shedding my past(s) for exactly a month. Sounds like a really good deal – one month of…

New day new concept

Yesterday was Friday the 13th. I actually had a good enough slot of time to go hang out with friends, but just as I was about to leave, the calendar caught my eyes. I got nervous and decided to head home instead. My stomach is tangled in knots of queasiness as I type this. Time…

Infinite Nothingness

The infinite bigness of unconditional love. The infinite knowledge out there for us to discover. The infinite lessons and identities we have to pull away before we reach the true Us. And then we find out this Infinite-ness is in fact Nothingness. I have a feeling we are being taken around on a wild wild…

Specifics

So yea, I took the slow, comforting winding road, and Self had to take the leadership to pushing Ego past comfort zone. I am trying very hard, and I am gifted with mentors and guidance on how to push them that comfort frontier a little bit further each time.