I just have to pick from an angels deck today. They woke me up twice this morning, but no specific task or homework given, so I just tossed and turned a little and went back to sleep. When I finally woke up (as in physically sat up) I saw a little feather, slightly bigger than the usual ones, drifting down to beside me. These are signs one cannot find any logical explanation to. I took it as a sign of support with ease and grace and carried on with my day. 🙂 Much calmer. 🙂
This deck is Angel Therapy Oracle Cards by Doreen Virtue, and was gifted to me by an earth angel. I don’t use this deck much, because the cover is … not fun, in the sense that I have no idea what the symbolism is behind two hands with twinkling stars and spiral lights. Never judge a card by its cover! The image contents are very beautiful (Gabriel is so pretty here!) and each card comes with Action Steps and Affirmations.
I am not at all surprised this came up. It has been the story of my life at every transitional phase. The most recent tip / trick I learnt was to breathe with a focus on the Throat Chakra, this helps us to be in our own power – which I see as speaking our truth, feeling and expressing who we are at every moment. Try it! Breathe in through your nose, and as you breathe in, focus your attention on the throat chakra (at or slightly above your collarbone). Exhale through your mouth, again as you breathe out, focus your attention on the throat chakra and imagine all the greys coming out together with your breath.
Speaking our truth is many layers deeper than being honest. To speak our truth, we must first be very honest with ourselves, meaning not just scraping the surface but to truly admit our true feelings. Only then can we truly share these feelings and revelations with others. If you are someone who has a tendency to keep clearing your throat, start noticing the instances when you do that. Does it always happen whenever there is something you feel uncomfortable about? Does it happen when you feel like telling someone off but you stopped yourself because you feel it is none of your business (or any other sensible reasons)? Is there something you want to ask, but you feel that it is not the right time / circumstance to do so, or that you do not know how the other person will react to whatever you say / ask? Or on a more mystical level, it could also be because you were persecuted for speaking your truth in the past life / lives.
I recently took on a new perspective of viewing this whole expression thing, and about being in my own power. Do you know that sometimes the Divine speaks through us? Do you know that if you hold back from speaking your truth, you may be denying another of their divine messages, or plainly their lessons? And of course, your own lessons too.
In the past week, Universe has been rolling trials and tribulations onto my path: I learnt to be assertive without being angry, I learnt to “scold” people without feeling guilty, I learnt to speak up how I feel instead of hiding behind veils of “I’m alright, I’ll just find my own way of circumventing the situation” (which now read as “I’ll run away and find alternatives to avoid this” – objective truth). Self-empowerment is expressing oneself without self-judgement of “am I too aggressive?”, “ewww, I’m so un-nice”, “don’t be mean”, “too meddlesome – it really shouldn’t be any of my business”, et cetera. I used to have a seriously bad horrible habit of side-stepping questions / topics of what I am uncomfortable with, of what I find awkward, or of something that I am confused or lack clarity about. I thought I had to portray a tough, know-it-all, sure-of-what-the-hell-I-am-doing, brave-clever-damn-intelligent, and a super-duper-nice person. Tsk! Now that I am bringing the Shadows to Light, instead of hiding behind this falsity, I feel I can one day dispel the shadows and be truly all of the above portrayal, within-and-without. ❤
It took me decades to be on a public platform and expressing my thoughts like this. Baby steps I took include writing in Momento (a private journal app) to tease out all the hidden emotions, and then when they are digitally out on “paper”, I connect the dots and understand what is happening within. With that, nobody can be judging me but myself. Since I had an extremely judge-y self, I had to find a loophole for the Higher Self to enter: close my eyes, ask ego-self to please step aside, and then just type out whatever flows. Grammar, typos, unstructured sentences or even words – don’t bother, just type whatever comes to the keyboard. It’s very therapeutic, and you get to know yourself a whole lot better. It is as though you have a BFF within you whom you do not know about. Try it!
If you still need some external nudges, try asking Gabriel. I quote from the book:
Archangel Gabriel, I call upon you now. Thank you for guiding me in the expression of my inner truth and wisdom. I ask that you watch over me in all that I say and write, so that I may clearly convey my inner messages.