Dark Night of the Soul

I’m feeling the brink of the abyss again, and decided to start a new category “Bookmark” for keeping all the resources I am in the midst of “studying” as I contemplate our human existence. Pointedly, the first one I am starting with is about the Existential Crisis. It is painful everytime I get to this point, and this is the point where I know I have to get through it myself. Even the Light Team stands by to watch (I know it from experience :s). They are not allowed to interfere and sadly, I can also understand why. There is usually much applause after the emergence from that dark space, but … let’s hope I get there soon.

Stanzas of the Soul (Introduction to the Dark Night)

1. One dark night,
fired with love’s urgent longings
– ah, the sheer grace! –
I went out unseen,
my house being now all stilled.

2. In darkness, and secure,
by the secret ladder, disguised,
– ah, the sheer grace! –
in darkness and concealment,
my house being now all stilled.

3. On that glad night,
in secret, for no one saw me,
nor did I look at anything,
with no other light or guide
than the one that burned in my heart.

4. This guided me
more surely than the light of noon
to where he was awaiting me
– him I knew so well –
there in a place where no one appeared.

5. O guiding night!
O night more lovely than the dawn!
O night that has united
the Lover with his beloved,
transforming the beloved in her Lover.

6. Upon my flowering breast
which I kept wholly for him alone,
there he lay sleeping,
and I caressing him
there in a breeze from the fanning cedars.

7. When the breeze blew from the turret,
as I parted his hair,
it wounded my neck
with its gentle hand,
suspending all my senses.

8. I abandoned and forgot myself,
laying my face on my Beloved;
all things ceased; I went out from myself,
leaving my cares
forgotten among the lilies.

– Saint John of the Cross, Doctor of the Church (1542- 1591)

Source(s) and explanations:
http://www.rosarychurch.net/mystic/john_cross_stanzas.html
http://www.ccel.org/download.html?url=/ccel/john_cross/dark_night.pdf

Expression of my life right now, in the language of the cards.

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