This card jumped out violently from the deck, as allegedly described by BFF. Apparently, every time I asked for a card, whichever card it is would “violently jump out”. I beg to differ. It is probably more of the cards exuberantly leaping out to be of service to their master (or owner, if it sounds a little better). I am pretty sure they recognise who they belong to. Teehee!

This Goblin is from the Wisdom of Avalon, by Collette Baron-Reid. She has an online app which you can do free readings here!

When the Goblin appears on your path, your plans are about to go awry. The Goblin wants to lead you astray and whispers the negative spell of fear, anger, resentment, self-righteousness, arrogance, selfishness, greed, glutton, procrastination, and addiction.

When the Goblin appears, it is time to stop what you are doing and check your motives. Are you coming from an ego-centered place? Are the circumstances in your life triggering unresolved past issues that still need healing?

Now is the time for self-evaluation and taking inventory, before you take another step. The Goblin represents the wounded ego and its influence. Dark, repressed areas of the psyche get triggered … either in you, or warning you of a dynamic between you and someone else.

Do nothing. Stay still, send loving energies to yourself and others, and remember the Divine connection in all things. The Goblin will disappear and lose power when you focus on love and fairness.

I went through the list of his negative whispers, and I suppose the only one of influence on me is gluttony. I was knocked out for two days in a row from MSG-intoxication, and possibly hidden gluten, and explicitly-laced lactose. I can hardly open my eyes right now, but at least I can breathe. And type.

Yikes! So, who is this “someone else” that the Goblin is trying to influence? While bed-stricken, I found some time to read up the concept on the wounded human ego. This website www.healyourinnerchild.com throws in a whole string of associativity between concepts I knew of but never connected the dots. According to the website, the wounded human ego is in fact our wounded inner child – the inner child I have been working on healing all this while. It is somewhat along the same lines of what I wrote in Forgive, but zooms out into a much bigger picture of many other associated concepts and affects.

“Our subconscious intellectual paradigm was adapted by our ego in early childhood in response to our emotional experience of being a child. The ego is the part of us that is charged with responsibility for our survival. The ego is the seat of the disease of codependence.”

“Our ego adapted itself to the environment it was experiencing. It developed emotional and behavioral defense systems in reaction to the emotional pain we experienced growing up with parents who were wounded codependents.”

More yikes! I never saw the relationship between the wounded ego and codependence! I always brushed the concept of codependence off as merely for addicts with no control over their lives. The truth is, most of us have some sort of codependency, and it is just a matter of whether or not we are conscious of it. In this world where everything is a mirror, our old wounds reflect through the incidents and the people we attract.  This is the benevolent Universe giving us a chance to live out our human existence, and heal what is meant to be healed. The codependency thus arises from us not realising this truth, but instead, continue to cling on to the wounds, and insist on repeating the dramas which are in fact meant for us to view and learn as a third persona.

Ouch, Universe. What is it that I am not getting?


5 Comments Add yours

  1. kenfales says:

    Excellent writing! You’re not missing anything, and it sounds like you’re looking in some of the right places. 🙂

    Liked by 1 person

    1. leapingtoes says:

      Thank you! I certainly hope so! 🙂

      Liked by 1 person

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