Interestingly, this was part of our conversation yesterday. Lynda was guiding me through the process, “does this fall under the category of 没关系?” Pronounced mei guan xi, this Chinese term means “does not matter”, and in the context of what we were discussing, “fungible” would be the perfect word which I did not know before this RDP.
She was helping me rehearse the decision making process in a way. Yup, rams have lessons to learn. She says I’ll have to make some hard decisions as we transit the year. I will have to choose. I thought it is pretty neat to have choices, but apparently it isn’t going to be easy.
As we evolve, we outgrow situations, we outgrow people, we outgrow relationships. While at the same time, there are certain things/people that are core to our existence. I.e. they matter. Their presence or absence matter. Although I know and agree that no one (no exceptions) is indispensable, but there are always certain people whom one would prefer to always have around. To what extent does it matter, and to what extent does it not matter. All the what ifs and what are you willing to give in / up. What would you exchange for it?
Curious question though, is there anyone in your life whom you’d feel insufferable if you have to cut him/her out of your life for whatever reasons? Or conversely, if he/she had to choose (for whatever reason) to cut you out of his/her life?
Guess I’ve always had it easy in very straightforward decision-making. Now it looks like the grey theme is seeping out into many aspects. No wonder she called me, “you black and white aries person, the most emotional girl on the planet”, and she even had to explain what this sentence means. Ewww, the daftness is showing through and through.
Ah well. Will see when the occasion arises. I may be barking up the wrong tree. hehe!