As many of you know by now, I have been working on clearing my karma / karmic issues from lives present and past, hoping that it will lead to a lighter future, or even more favourably – no future. In the process / processing, I witness for myself the events in the timelines and most times, it bewilders me, “why the heck would anyone do that?”, and also most times, I have to do alot alot of research after the sessions to fill in the gaps so that my conscious mind understands what is going on. (Note / Question to self: does it matter whether or not the conscious mind knows? If all the energies have been cleared from the subtle bodies?)
And most synchronistically, every time any such lesson pops up, it either clarifies a current nagging question/issue, or …. drumroll … it is in preparation of what is to come.
In my last workshop where I re-did my Game of Life (Thetahealing) course, what came up was how I caused the extinction of an entire species. The course was in end October, but I never really had the guts to write about it, because that is how ashamed I am of my (prior life’s) wrongdoing.
Universe had the compassion to place this lesson side-by-side by a similar one of shame, when I was overthrown by the masses. I still vividly remember the scene, when we testing the beliefs, “it is safe to … ” and when I was shown that past life, I was asked, “did you die?” “were you persecuted?” (I had many lives of persecution – which also happened to be how I stumbled onto this energetic healing journey) My reply then was plainly, “nope, didn’t die. Just shamed”, “overthrown”, and I remember my classmates also laughing at my response “just shamed” because who cares about being shamed right, I didn’t get killed. 😀 The stark answer that got me crying was when I said, “but they were just animals“. That was how my soul felt, and what my soul (then) understood – it was during some French Revolution (I didn’t do much research on this one, because the bigger story – later paragraph – ate my heart) and I was either a nobleman or an aristocrat (or are these two the same?). I cried because the current me feels I was evil. Then Creator explained that during that period, the masses (people …. human beings …) were viewed by the aristocrats/nobility as something else altogether, as though a separate species from the rich and powerful. 😦 Horrible, right? Not that I want to “shirk responsibility”, but what this has taught me was that sometimes we are just caught in situations when we do what we are taught to do because we weren’t shown any better ways of doing so. 😦
Well, to make myself feel a tiny little bit better, maybe that is why I have made so many trips around France, and … each time I’m there, I make many small donations here and there to organisations and people on the streets. Because I feel very drawn to do so. Almost as though I owed it to them. And that was before the emergence of this story.
Alright the bigger story, albeit a briefer one. I was a nobleman. This time, it is strange, it was clearly a nobleman – no fuzziness with aristocracy. Then again, I was definitely part of royalty, maybe edging nobility. Maybe if I do more detailed research, this can be Creator’s clues on which specific period it is. (And thus, this may, in part, answer the question to self at the initial para… ) Anyway, bye to Monkey Mind chasing after names and titles.
I was under immense pressure to perform, as I had little creative contribution to the royal population (ahah, does anyone put royal and population in the same phrase?!). I had to come up with something new that can intrigue and hold the attention of my peers. So I came up with this idea of sport hunting. WHAT THE HECK. (I am starting to research as I write this post .. and … 😡 humans have caused 322 extinctions over the past 500 years 😦 ) On hindsight, it does not sound quite right that I “invented” sport hunting, since it is something that has been around for ages, so it could be rather the hunt for that specific animal? Thank goodness that some better person came around and banned sport hunting in palace grounds.
It is very hard to continue writing this in my usual lighthearted manner after what I have just read/wrote. … . I actually no idea why I am still prodded to continue my writing, but we will find out at some point, I guess.
So. I saw the animal, it was a very beautiful, majestic hoofed animal, looking much like a humongous deer with gorgeous antlers. Yes, I saw myself beside a dead beautiful majestic animal that did me no wrong. But I saw how guilty I felt and how sorry I felt for the animal which had helped me in achieving my goals (stupid chase for fame and glory. arghz. what the heck.) But in that lifetime, I did not (as yet) see its extinction. It is only the current me looking back and … … … ARGHZ. So I sent healing to the trauma – for both myself and the animal. And then healing to the entire species. The very gentle animal came back to comfort me in that healing. 😥 It was so forgiving and even explained many aspects of the bigger picture to me. I cannot recall as yet, but as we have learnt from previous healing stories, the details arise when the need arises. I cannot forget the gentle and nurturing look on this majestic animal. ❤
At that point in time, I understood the crux of the healing as lesson of forgiving humanity, because I have always had this innate pissed-off-ness with the stupidity of human race in caring only for ourselves, without understanding the larger context of how we have caused the destruction to other beings sharing the planet with us (and still thinking we are so darn smart). Hah, we always end up pointing the fingers to ourselves! The other aspect of the healing was to release my fear of leading humanity, because there was an underlying subconscious fear of my leadership leading to the destruction and death of others. This session pained me alot more than the destruction of Atlantis. Guess it is also because I partook in leading the destruction of Atlantis, but I was only “part” of the leadership, rather than being the leadership. (blame-sharing? maybe).
In the context of today, when we are reading about billions of animals being killed by wildfires, and the possibility of many extinctions, I am pretty sure that session has something to show me or guide me on the Higher Perspective. My little brain has yet to figure, but will update along the way.
What a painful start to the year. We have barely passed the 2/3s of the first month of 2020.