I feel vaguely blue today. Vaguely because I don’t exactly know why I feel blue, and also because I cannot make out what is going on all around. All Around, I am serious, just totally bewildered with big “Huhhhhhhhsss? What’sss goingsss onsss?” from morning till now. It’s midnight, so let’s just hope that tomorrow/today’s a better day.
The other blue is the sinking feeling, of struggling to keep afloat from the blueness of the weirdness. My email was not working well today, and it really reduced my productivity level, as I try to look ten thousand places to locate one email which I thought I sent in the morning. Instead, I found unsent emails in error, and that specific one I was trying to locate was not even there! Horrors. I was fumbling around one corporate release for the longest time, cos there was just a strange feeling that something’s off. Yup, another lowered productivity event. Finally I found – two critical errors. Oh man, times when I really don’t know whether to be angry or thankful. I shall choose the latter.
The more expected kind of blue is – basically the time of the month to do Math. Guess it did not help that I have to do these while being swallowed up by all the randomness. All these low productivity consequentially also means that I still have a pile of to-dos. BUT, I really need to rant this out, clean up my act and then work hard on a clean slate.
The winner of the day was a super vague deep blue that sprung up from nowhere, but it made a good breakaway from work problems. I am not sure if I am bewildered, bemused or both. There are really all kinds of people in the world. As much as I try to open up to different cultures, different fields, different genres, different interests most of the time already, Universe still has this magical ability to throw something else in the pool that makes me go, “whoOooooooAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa”. Alright man, for this, you do not have to bring it on. Just give me an acceptable level of diversity will do. 🙂
Now I have to find a not-so-happy blue photo to match the tone of this post. Hmmm. More low-productivity-tasks but I will find one.